Not Always Perfect

Just thought I'd blog a bit when life isn't so great.  Seems like I'm always writing about how much I like it up here in Normal.  I guess I just blog when I feel relaxed and happy.   I actually do have hard days and feel overwhelmed quite often.

Last week I noticed that Kyra has a permanent tooth growing in behind a baby tooth.  She never lost any baby teeth all through kindergarten.  Naaman lost about 6 in his first semester!  Anyway, I was feeling financially concerned because a day or two after noticing her tooth issue (and finding out on the internet that we would likely have to have several of her teeth pulled), I noticed we had tons of water under our sink.  Turns out our faucet was leaking, so we had to get a replacement.  Well the very expensive new faucet doesn't work right, either.  At least it has a lifetime warranty.  But now Rudy has to find time to uninstall and reinstall a faucet.   Ugh!

I haven't been enjoying my job lately.  It's been really busy at the hospital, so I've been working longer hours.  And the environment is not ideal.  There's a lot of gossiping and unkind speech.  I was very spoiled in my old work situation, so I've been quite taken aback by people's behavior.   Yesterday I was sitting at a computer and actually heard someone quote me to my boss in a derogatory way that was completely out of context!  Unbelievable.  I just felt so sick and betrayed.  I feel like I can't say anything at work because everything is being filtered through negativity.  Plus I often feel incompetent or bored since I'm not being used in my area of strength.  I mostly feel like I'm helping people, but I'm having a hard time with so many aspects of my job.  It feels yucky.   

And today I just got really stressed out by the messy state of the house.  I was grumping at the kids about it.  Then I realized it makes sense that things are messier--there are 3x as many kids home all day as there were a few weeks ago.  At least they are getting along pretty well and having fun coming up with new games and stuff.  We're really having a great time, but the great time has been going on too long.  They haven't been going to be until too late, and I don't like messed up schedules.  I haven't been able to get everything done around the house that I need to, and I feel I will never be able to catch up.  Hopefully I will catch up by next weekend when we leave for Colorado.  Ah!  beautiful Colorado.  I can hardly wait to see you again.